My So Called Reading List (Books I loved As A Teenager)

Hello! Welcome to another week and another new blog. It’s hard to believe that we’re already in May! So I was brainstorming ideas for this week’s blog and I came across my well-loved copy of twilight, and it got me thinking of all of the awesome books I read as a teenager. so it got me thinking and I thought id give you a list of the top 40 books I loved as a teenager. I’ll also link you to my Goodreads profile! so here is the long list of books I loved as a teenager. 

• Thirteen Reasons Why By Jay Asher
• Scrambled Eggs at Midnight By Brad Barkley
• Dream Factory By Brad Barkley
• Audrey Wait By Robin Benway
• All American Girl Series By Meg Cabot 
• Airhead Series By Meg Cabot 
• Pants on Fire By Meg Cabot 
• How to Be Popular By Meg Cabot 
• Avalon High By Meg Cabot 
• 1-800-Where-R-You Series By Meg Cabot 
• The Morganville Vampires Series By Rachel Caine 
• The Nature of Jade By Deb Caletti 
• Honey, Baby, Sweetheart By Deb Caletti 
• Stolen: A Letter to My Captor By Lucy Christopher 
• The A-List Series By Zoey Dean
• This Lullaby By Sarah Dessen 
• The Truth About Forever By Sarah Dessen 
• Just Listen By Sarah Dessen 
• That Summer By Sarah Dessen 
• Elixir By Hillary Duff
• Vampire Beach Series By Alex Duval 
• Evernight By Claudia Gray 
• The Juliet Club By Suzanne Harper 
• The Clique Series By Lisi Harrison 
• The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer By Michelle Hodkin 
• Crank Series By Ellen Hopkins 
• Wake Series By Lisa McMann
• The Twilight Saga By Stephenie Meyer
• The Host By Stephenie Meyer 
• Taken By Storm By Angela Morrison 
• Maximum Ride Series By James Patterson 
• Just Like That By Marsha Qualey 
• Vampire Kisses Series By Ellen Schreiber 
• I Heart You, You Haunt Me By Lisa Schroeder 
• Cheerleader Trilogy By Kieran Scott
• Cirque Du Freak Series By Darren Shan
• Go Ask Alice 
• The Last Song By Nicholas Sparks 
• The Wolves Of Mercy Series By Maggie Stiefvater 

Thank You for checking out this week’s blog, did I mention any of your favorites? Let me know down in the comments down below! As always catch you next time!

“And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…” he murmured. I looked away, hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the word.
“What a stupid lamb,” I sighed.
“What a sick, masochistic lion.
-twilight

You were a summer gift, one I’ll always treasure. You were a dream I never wanted to wake up from. You opened my eyes to things I’ll never really see. You’re the best thing that will ever happen to me.
-Crank

Was it hard?” I ask.
“Letting go?”
“Not as hard as holding on to something that
wasn’t real.”
I gulp. “Can I ask how you did it?”
“I just decided, Ava.
That’s all.
I just decided.

15 Random Facts About Me.

Hello, so it’s been a while since I posted a new blog. It’s been a struggle around here being locked in all the time, I’ve been going crazy. But I’m also blessed I’m able to stay how with Jax and not have to take him out in all of this. But I was brainstorming for this week’s blog and thought I’d give you 15 things you might not know about me:

1. I’m obsessed with planning and planners. My favorite is Happy Planner

2. My first ever concert was Blue October. we were front row and I had a horrible panic attack, and my friends mom had to walk to the back of the concert with me. (sorry Lindsay!) I’ll link some of my favorite Blue October songs here👉🏻👉🏻 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1wScoz76raxtUG3DEJ8BDd?si=Pq-Oj-KdQCmwLvGueY9vLw

3. I’ve always wanted to write a book, and I’m actually working on that right now! Lol.

4. I love folding laundry, but hate washing dishes.

5. I think Pierce The Veil has taken the spot as my favorite band. (I know gasp!)
   6. I’m a sucker for a good paranormal story, and I want to be BFFS with Bigfoot.
   7. I’m in a terrible reading slump. So if you have any recommendations send them my way!
6. I was able to see the birth of my sweet cat Gracie, and later on when she had kittens I was able to keep her son and I named him Levi.
   9. Pride and Prejudice is my favorite movie of all time!
   10. Speaking of favorite, Outlander is holding its spot at my favorite T.V. Show.
   11. I’ve never stepped foot in the ocean, but I’ve been to the beach. Just not my cup of tea. Haha.
   12. I’m obsessed with striped and florals.
   13. It’s don’t be hard to believe, but Twilight isn’t my favorite vampire book series. It’s actually the Morganville vampire series.
   14. I’m lactose intolerant. But it doesn’t stop me from eating Ice Cream or Having cereal. Lol.
   15. It took me so long to make this list! Haha.

Thank you so much for checking out this weeks blog! We’ll go back to regular post every Friday starting this upcoming Friday, see you then! ☺️

Words so many words

As I was thinking about what I wanted to post for this weeks blog. I came across  some old poems I wrote back in my old emo days haha! Some of them are a bit unfinished, and some of them well are. I hope you enjoy them, it was definitely fun to look back on sad Haley days. Let me know which one was your favorite down in the comments!! Have a great day 🙂 
P.S. Scroll down for some old Haley emo Pictures 

` July 20 it happened one minute you not even In my thoughts and then there you are but this time it’s in a whole new light , I just assumed they were talking about somebody else, like I said you hadn’t crossed my mind. But you were dead, it was too painful to processes at that moment, I shouldn’t have felt this way. I shouldn’t have let it get to me, but at one time you meant the world to me.. I loved you, I shouldn’t have, I know I shouldn’t have.. They said you killed yourself. I didn’t go to your funeral, I was to scared, I didn’t want to see the fragile and broken person who killed himself. You’re gone now and their is nothing I can do, I just wish I could go back and tell how much I really loved you.


Do we ever worry that our faults will give us away, like if we could somehow hide all of our imperfections put them away, hide them somehow. Would we be better off? It always seems better to hide things and act like they not there, would it makes our walk thru life a little easier, or not? Or would it somehow just catch up with us later in life, pop out at the worst time, and show it’s self in all of it’s ugliness. Could we face it right on, or hide like a scared little child in hopes that mommy would somehow make it all better.


“From the day I met him I knew their was something magical about him, the Way he could hold a room with his smile. The way his blue eyes healed mine,even if I was to shy to meet them. I feel in love with him all to quickly but it was rather hard not to. I was always worried he could see my thoughts, I thought that maybe he could see how much I hated myself. I use to hate myself when I wasn’t around him, though the hate that I had for myself seemed to disappear when ever he was near. And then all to quickly it came back when ever he was gone.


If they knew if they only knew, you were the reason I use to hate myself.
The reason I use to hurt myself to let some of the pain go.
The many reason’s I would cry myself to sleep at night.
The reason I had a hard time loving myself.
The reason I would of let anybody in just to feel something within.
As I wiped away the water from the mirror I realized the person who was doing all of this to me, was in fact me.
I was the monster.


(Thought of the day)

It happened…
I let you in, I let you see the saddest parts of me. I shouldn’t have, but can’t you see it must of been the way you smiled at me. It was the beautiful kind that touched your eyes , so now you see why I couldn’t breath as you got closer and closer to me. You grabbed my hand and kissed my lips, I breathed you in, as you pulled me close. I lost my words I wanted to say, but then you pulled me on top of you. And we made love, even to the saddest parts.. But now your gone, cause it was all a dream.. But I know you there, even if it was only in the saddest parts of me.


I cried today at the sound of your name. Cause it brought back to many feelings, feelings I didn’t want to remember. It broke my heart though cause I once loved you, I know I did. I remember seeing myself in your eyes the last time we spoke, it scared me because it wasn’t me i saw, it was this monster whom I’ve never met before. I saw the hate in this monster, I never once hated you, I think you knew that, i think that’s why it took you so long to believe it was me. You thought I wouldn’t hurt you.. But I did, but you have to believe it was the monster. It wasn’t me, I loved you, remember?


i’ve been in my mind at least a thousand times.
I think of you, but I thought of him.
I’m in my head help me get out.
I over think and I over think, till the words start spilling out. I wanted her, she never cared. His love is amazing. I hated myself for far to long. I’m spinning and spinning help me out. He’s got my heart and that’s all that should matter. I wish I could make sense of these words that are spilling out. But once again I’m brought back here. Oh please help me out of here.

A to Z Reads

Well Hello there Blogger it’s been a hot minute since I’ve been on here! But I thought I’d stop by here and give you some reading recommends, and what better way to do it than to run thru the alphabet. so lets get started!

A. “After” By Anna Tood

B.  “Breaking Dawn” By Stephenie Meyer

C.  “A Court of thorns and roses By Sarah J. Maas

D.  “Dorothy Must die By Danielle Paige

E. “Eclipse” By Stephenie Meyers

F. “From here to you” By Jamie McGuire

G.“Glass Houses” By Rachel Cain

H. Harry Potter and the sorcerer’s stone By J.K. Rowling

I. “If I stay” By Gayle Forman

J. “Just like that” By Marsha Qualey

K. “Keeping the Moon” By Sarah Dessen

L. “Lola and the Boy Next Door” By Stephanie Perkins

M. “Midnight Sun” By Stephenie Meyers

N. “New Moon” By Stephenie Meyers

P. “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” By Stephen Chbosky

Q. “Queen of Shadows” By Sarah J. Mass

S. “Stolen: A Letter to My Captor” By Lucy Christopher

T. “Twilight” By Stephanie Meyers

U. “Ugly Love” By Colleen Hoover

W. “White Hot Kiss” By Jennifer L. Armentrout

So you might be wondering, Hey their are some letters missing. And you would be correct haha I have read alot of books yes, but their are some letters that I can honestly say that I havent read the book yet. But i’d love to hear if I listed one of you’re Favorite books. Or If I didnt I’d love to hear what some of your favorite books are! well untill next time 🙂

2019 Top three goals!

Wow 2018 has definitely been probably the craziest year of my life! From finding out I was pregnant at the beginning of the year, to adopting one of the sweetest cats I’ve ever met in my whole life. And to giving birth to my sweet baby boy  2018 is definitely one for the books but with 2018 coming to a close, I’m reflecting on the goals I’ve got for 2019. I’ve giving myself three goals to accomplished before the year is over. 

1. My first goal of the year is to learn how to drive! Yes I am aware I’m 26 years old, but I’ve got a couple of reasons as to why I haven’t yet. main reason is I haven’t motivated myself enough to yet, but as of 2019 I will be a driver out on the open road. 🙂

2. My second goal would definitely be to figure out this whole Mom thing, because yes they have all of these new mom books and blogs and Pintrest. But a lot of it is learning how to figure it out yourself. Like playing the same song over and over because its the only one that keeps them calm or bouncing on a yoga ball at 3am because that’s the only thing that will get them to sleep. Or getting the bottle to be the right temperature so your not burning your babies throat. But I know 2019 will be a year of growing for me and Jax.

3.My last goal for this upcoming year will be to read more, reading use to be my favorite pastime. But like most readers I’ve gotten into a reading slump. But as of 2019 I hope to bring  the joy of reading back into my life. 

Well those are my top three goals for 2019! I’d love to hear other people’s goals for the New Year, do we share the same goals? Feel free to leave your goals in the comments below! 🙂